I had the most amazing experience three days ago, and I’m still feeling the effects of it. Not sure how far it’s going to take me, but I’m exhilarated by the ride!
My friends Janene and Nicole are healers. Both are incredible in their own ways, with their own modalities. Janene Cummings is a Vocal Toning healer, myinnerharmony.com. She sings and plays you into ecstasy, peace and transformation. Nicole Smith, chenergy.us, is an energy light worker who also uses aromatherapy, to assist you in recognizing your own greatness. At least that is what these two did for me.
They had never supported a client together before. I was the first lucky one to experience the wealth of having both of them in the room at the same time, directing their love and healing intentions toward me. I’m such a lucky gal.
I laid on the table while Janene sat at the piano a few feet away. Nicole put some essential oils on my feet, and I began a journey through my root, sacral, solar plexus and heart chakras which gave me an entirely new picture of myself. I’ll try to explain it to you.
The energy Nicole was connecting with was a combination or concentration of my own, hers, and Other. It all focused in a stream and traveled up my body. My feet and legs felt solid as an oak tree. I had never felted so rooted, ever. I was supporting myself from the earth. Root chakra? Check.
Relationships came to mind. My wants and desires. What did I want to explore in this session? What lesson was I ready to learn? How deep could this connection between Nicole, Janene and I go? Sacral chakra? Check.
A beam of light energy shot into my solar plexus; from Nicole, from Source, I don’t know. It didn’t matter. It went into my solar plexus from the front, then curved around and came back out through my heart, then up to Source again while it looped around and came into solar plexus, down and around and out through my heart. I wondered what the relationship was between the two. Solar plexus chakra? Checkity check check.
Before I move on to my heart, remember that Janene is playing the piano and singing all this time. Her melodies and voice are a cloud upon which I rest. I’m a cherub in an old-fashioned painting, lying on a cloud with my friends, playing a harp and looking adorable. There was never a moment when the cloud of her music was not supporting me. I felt loved, coddled, safe and protected.
Heart chakra. Here’s where it gets interesting. In my mind’s eye, my own fleshy heart felt small. Weak. Skipping beats, ready to fail. It could stop at any moment, was barely strong enough to support me lying on the table. I felt protective of it, fearful it couldn’t handle this intense experience.
Then I felt a light. The bright cone of illumination started at a single point in my chest, just in front of my wimpy heart. It shone outward, forward out of my chest, flaring outward with great intensity. But it did not touch the weak, small heart behind it. They were separate things.
I talked to Nicole throughout this experience. One of the things she is really good at is meeting me where I am, and not backing down when a challenge is called for. She is sort of an expert at provoking people with love and compassion. She challenged me to turn the light around and shine it on myself. I tried. I could only turn it halfway, so it was shining to the side. It took too much effort. Then we talked and decided to just back the light up a few inches, so it was behind my heart and not in front of it. That worked! The light shone on my poor little heart. Heart chakra? Check!
The four chakras I had activated then merged. I saw them as a living channel, a tube of energy and flesh, from root to heart and beyond. It stretched toward my head, enveloped Throat, Third Eye and Crown, then flared out above my head. The light in my body then turned upward and also shone out through the top of my head, growing wider and lovelier as it extended from my body.
And then I understood the relationship between the chakras. First root, then sacral, then solar plexus, etc. Only when the lower chakra is activated can the next higher one engage. I can’t skip up to my sacral chakra without addressing the needs of the root first. Of course I had heard this many times, but this time I actually felt it. My solar plexus became so clear. My boundaries became clear. My power gathered and hummed. And only then could I really expand and strengthen the heart, and truly love myself and others. I’m sure I’ll have more experiences with my upper three chakras but for now my focus was on solar plexus and heart.
I gathered in the strength of love and support I felt from Janene and Nicole. They were holding me, on a cloud of acceptance and encouragement. Nicole challenged me again. I got angry.
My focus shifted. I saw myself as a lighted core with a fleshy membrane all around me: my body. Skin, muscles, organs, bones. And I knew what I needed to do.
It was the hardest thing. I gave up. I surrendered. It felt like dying. I told myself, if I’m going to die doing this, at least I’m with people who love me and understand. What better moment could I choose to obliterate myself?
My membrane, my body, dissolved. All outer defenses melted away with my own sense of who I am and how I exist in the world. All that was left was the channel, from root to crown.
And in that moment, if you can stand to believe me, I saw God. Grey beard, piercing kind eyes, the whole flowing robes thing. He was hovering about ceiling height, looking right at me. He reached for me, and my light then expanded as I reached for him. We merged, I felt so connected, and I was complete.
It only took a few seconds for my busy brain to butt in, trying to make sense of this whole experience. It’s still playing with it, three days later. But in that time I have also run through a gamut of emotions: a sense of my own unlimited power, clarity around boundaries and desires. Sadness, depression. Then fear. Today I am more settled. I have reconsidered every relationship I have, and I am renegotiating some of them based upon my new sense of clarity around my own limits, my respect for myself, and my own desires. I feel I can love more authentically now. I can love others from the overflow of my own self-love. I see it so clearly. I know how it works.
Change happens to us. Transformation occurs inside, as a result of the change. We can resist it, we can be neutral, or we can seek it out and embrace it. I’m a seeker. I love this dynamic of living, loving, learning and growing. I will never stop growing.
If you are curious about having a double-shot experience of Nicole Smith and Janene Cummings, I highly encourage you to book a session with them. I’d be happy to answer any questions you have, about them, about my experience, or about whatever you want to explore. Nothing is beyond your reach. Even loving yourself. Thank you.